Since I’ve Reincarnated as the Villainess’ Father, I’ll Shower My Wife and Daughter in Love – 31

A Conversation Between Mother and Son

After that… we left Sasha’s room, and I tried to guide the two towards the parlour to take a rest, but suddenly my mother grabbed my arm. Mother told father to chat with Laurier for a while, which he looked a little awkward about doing, as she dragged me into a separate room…

“Um… mother?”

After taking me aside, mother looked at me silently as if she was pondering the words she was going to say, then after a deep breath, it looked like she had come to a decision.

“You… are you truly Callis?”

“…What’s brought this on?”

I felt a cold sweat begin to form on my brow at those sudden words, but mother didn’t seem to notice as she kept going.

“If I’ve misunderstood something, then I am sorry. But, when I look at you, it’s as if I’m looking at someone who is completely different to the memories I have of my Callis… it’s as if someone has taken over their body.”

What a terrifyingly potent power of observation. For a brief moment I wondered if my mother had also come from another world, but I kept that too myself as I shrugged.

“When people fall in love, they change. Didn’t you change as well, mother?”

“Well… of course, I am happy that your relationship with Sasha has changed for the better. But, how do I put this… have you suddenly gotten over that incident that has been making you avoid the other sex, ever since you were a boy?”

“That’s… well, I suppose so…”

One of the reasons that Callis had been cold to Sasha in the past was, as mother alluded to, due to his childhood trauma.

Specifically, when Callis was still barely five years old… he was assaulted by a maid that worked in this very mansion.

To be blunt, it was sexual. It seemed like that pedophile maid had taken an interest in Callis for some time and, when she found the opportunity, attacked him in his bed.

Fortunately, Callis managed to get help before she was able to do anything too despicable to him, but… the event undoubtedly left a mark on the young boy.

So, even though he’s an older man now, that trauma stayed with him… whenever he thought of the opposite sex, of seeing eyes filled with lust, all he could remember was the fear when he gazed into the eyes of that predator as a boy, looming in the dark.

It was that moment that triggered Callis’ misogyny.

He was fine with some women, like his mother and his nanny, as well as some of the maids he already knew and trusted, but Callis was unable to deal with other women who had come of age at all.

But, despite his fear of women leaving his potential to create a successor in doubt, Callis still grew into quite a man. However, although mother and father were unable to have another child, Callis’ grandparents had a strong attachment to the lineage of the house, and wouldn’t grant permission for an adoption… in short, they would accept no one else but Callis to inherit the House of Fall.

So, they did their best to pressure Callis into finding a fiancée… Since he felt like he was shaming his House, and his mother and father had allowed him to do whatever he liked until he came of age, Callis decided to join up with the knights.

Although they were happy for him to join the Order until he became an adult, Callis climbed the ranks far more quickly than anyone could have expected, soon gaining the moniker of ‘Sword Demon’.

Well, a lot of other things happened as well, but… for now, I spoke back to my mother, who still stared at me suspiciously.

“Mother, it’s true that, when I couldn’t forget what happened in the past, I couldn’t bring myself to look at either of them at all. But… those two have healed me, both in my heart and in my soul. If I were to say that the trauma was gone completely, that would be a lie, but… those two could love even a coward like me, so I have to return it as much as I can.”

There was still a deep wound on Callis’ heart. As the days roll by, I gain more and more of Callis’ memories, and it feels like my personality is beginning to assert itself over his body, but… my desire to cherish those two people like my family will never change, no matter what.

Even if Callis’ original personality disappears completely because of me, then I’ll love those two in his place.

After mulling over what I said, mother looked at me silently for a moment… then, spoke with a short sigh.

“Is that so… I understand. I’ll believe you.”

“Are you fine with that?”

“I still have my doubts, but… no matter how different a person you may seem, you are still our Callis. Besides… it’s only natural for a parent to want to believe in their son, isn’t it?”

Was it because of my good mood after seeing Sasha? There was something in mother’s smile that was truly refreshing.

 


 

A bit heavier than usual

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29 comments

  1. It sure was quite heavier then normal. Also we get a logical reason for why Callis didn’t like his wife and daughter. But i wonder if being attacked by a lolicon young would trully make someone become a misogyne ? 2 or 3rd time i see it appear in story.

    1. Victims of sexual assault can have lasting mental and emotional damage, yes. Flip the genders of the parties involved and think about it again and you can see why he might have problems.

      1. That is totally true, they have a very hard time connecting, ( sometimes wth the opposite gender ), or even anyone at all.
        Just because he was Male doesn’t make the Trauma any less than for a female, at times it makes it even worse because of the stupid concept that because he is a boy/Male, it shouldn’t matter, but a child is a child and should not have their feelings dismissed just because of gender.

    2. its been a few years and other comments have already explained, but I also want to add a few things. For one Callis was never a misogynist. From what his male and female servants treated him, it’s made very clear that he put up walls around himself with everyone. Which is a very typical response and understandable when your trust is violated in such a pervasive way at such a young age. It’s certainly true that Callis is described as particularly having trouble with women, but there’s a difference between being uncomfortable around and cold towards and actively hating people for their sex, and it’s also said here he was okay with women he previously had a close relationship with and felt he could trust. Sasha even stated early in her POV she always loved Callis because even though he was cold, he was never actively abusive or hateful towards her (unlike her own parents).

      As for him being young, that children are especially sensitive to trauma (that isn’t to say adults aren’t but it has a different meaning for kids). Just think back on some memory where you stand next to an adult. In that memory that adult still feels massive. Now apply this to a traumatic event. If not properly treated and addressed this becomes something ingrained in your personality. This is especially a problem in noble society where house status and reputation is everything (mental illness STILL carries shame for people today and we’ve only recently made major strives to change that). Not to mention these settings often just having a less developed understanding of health care. Callis most likely never received any type of therapy or mental healing other than the treatment of his parents (who appear to have been understanding). And things from decades ago tend to grow exponentially if left untreated (people really can’t just “get over it” and when they try it doesn’t end well).

      This exchange also revealed that Callis’s grandparents gave him no sympathy and neither did the noble social system. Because his parents couldn’t adopt no one else could succeed the household and so to maintain the lineage Callis was FORCED to get married and later FORCED to have sex and a child (which is haunting considering his trauma and his never receiving any actual mental healing help (imagine if a rape victim who was dealing with serious TRAUMA, depression, and PTSD was forced into marriage and heavily pressured to have sex and kids by everyone around them, but given no support on their trauma)).

      His actions were reasonable. Not justifiable (no one’s actions should be) and he isn’t blameless, but this does explain a lot. The MC only doesn’t have the trauma because apparently he gets the memories but none of the emotions or feelings with them, which is kinda the final middle finger to Callis. His trauma is never dealt ieht or appreciated, but just kinda brushed aside. The MC doesn’t even at least tell Sasha as an explanation. If his parents didn’t bring it up, we wouldn’t know about it, Rather I’m kinda hating the MC a bit for constantly berating Callis in his head despite remembering this. Again Callis isn’t blameless, but also isn’t 100% to blame or a complete abusive sexist. He was cold and put on walls unwilling to connect with his family (which to be fair, he had to relive his trauma and wasn’t given a choice), but that was it. Laurie chose on her own how to interpret that (which is also understandable because that’s how kids are and why neglect in early childhood is problematic). Her governess was the abusive one and the servants enabled the abuse as much as anyone, by not reporting it (because a 2 year old is in a position to decide what she can endure). Sasha was equally detached and though she had her own issues (abusive parents and loveless marriage), similar to Callis that’s not justification for her neglect. All around its a pretty awful situation. Eventually Laurie herself would become an awful person as a victim of neglect and abuse herself. God why are otome games so dark?

  2. Ah, that’s how it is, it turns out that the calis are victims of nee-san (shotacon) .. To be honest I’m confused to be sad or laugh to respond to it 😅 #Ara_Ara 😆😆

  3. Finally! Thanks for the chapter

    What a traumatic experience callis had. Tsk tsk to think that there are girls who do that, truly a fearsome creature.

    1. Well recently in real life there was that woman who killed her friend because she loved him a bit too much. My point is that since incidents like that happen in real life, it’s not strange to see it happening in noves

  4. Ok, that does make some sense. How the heck such a criminal maid actually managed to get to nearly do the R thing, beats me. Maybe she was hired and/or drugged, idk, after all, a mere 5 years old, the heck. Maybe that shotacon maid was pervert priest or bishop in a former life.
    Thanks for the chapter! God bless you, take care, and please release more of this 😀

    1. She probably behaved normally until she found a chance, probably sneaked into his bed at night when there was no one guarding Callis’s room.

      Haven’t you heard those stories of someone marrying a person they have know for years and then suddenly find out that person abused (sexually or physically) the children of the first person?

    2. Astonishing it may be, but pedophiles exist in reality, and due to the (justified) resentment towards them, they typically keep it to themselves. And it’s entirely possible that that was the maid’s first offence.

    3. I mean the abusive governess was straight up sadistic and got away with it (apparently long enough in the original storyline for it to traumitize Laurie in a similar way).

  5. Thanks for the chapter.
    Yeah…that trauma explains a lot…but,WOW mothers know best indeed

  6. I don’t see anything funny in a child being sexually abused, if it was a girl then no one would be laughing.

    Thanks for the chapter~

  7. Does anyone have a novel suggestion like this? You know, I usually read novels after work, so I need a light and interesting story and full of sugar.LOL
    Thanks Before.

    1. Have you read “I Don’t Want to Become a Villainess, So I Aim at Becoming a Perfect Lady Together with the Prince!”

      iirc it has a similar feel.

  8. I swear *those* kind of people seem to always slip through the cracks of society and into the lives of poor children who suffer greatly as a result. It’s infuriating! Thanks for le chappie though~

  9. I honestly think he should tell his parents, wife, and daughter about his reincarnation. I mean, in a sense his parents lost their son, his wife lost her husband, and her daughter lost her Father. I think he owes the truth to at least them. Hopefully he can come clean one day.

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